monster in me

what is mine, I have been thinking,
on every turn, till now, life has been winking,
I tried walking up to the mirror, to see a monster,
I rushed back even before I could reach,
I just don’t want another body to be destroyed.
what we demand isn’t what we need,
He does know what is required and what to give.
I am dead within, in the dress of beast I wore,
may this dead arise soon, or has he formed into another form,
some things are meant to be the way they are,
then why can’t I stay far from few things, really far,
to the land where I am meant to be, not alone within.
I have everything I dreamed of, just I am not the one,
the drops falling will turn into an ocean, soon
I need a boat from within to survive, lifejackets won’t
be enough to afloat this monster across to dreamland.

* smiling *

I, ME AND MY ACT.

Today, I wish to write,

Words which aren’t polite.

With downcastly heart,

Though they’ll never depart.

And forever with that emotion,

stucked , now not in motion.

How harmful am I,

Left someone to cry,

Now feel sorry for what I were,

Even if hanged, nothing will occur,

To me. Those two steps I took,

Moved on basis of look,

Am unforgivable, in this life’s case,

Wish you all could know my erasable face.

Walk in the dark

I feel I walk ,in the dark night

Long is the way, ënd seems bright

There I see a light shinning far away,

I see myself shinning, that bright, someday.

I sometimes dream how days look like,

So when I get chance I will strike.

This feeling of being alone,

Will be covered by someone like me,

Together we grow and somehow feel free.

This comes under as secondary to achieve,

I will keep waking, for goals as they are difficult to leave.

I am low

I feel low like am in an ocean,

The sand at the seabed pulling me,

I now have no control on my emotions,

Oh my lord  help me, show some mercy.
Deep here is beautiful world never seen,

Tho i wanna rise to see the sunshine.

Why can’t i overcome, haven’t i crossed eighteen,

I still seems difficult, as am trying since i was nine.
I look for the treasure, knowing i will not make to air,

This pleasure of seconds,will vanish soon,

Tell me the way to get out of this ensnare,

This is vanish soon, for forever, won’t be seasonal as mansoon.

Today i am low, deep in my thoughts,

One day i will touch the sunlight,reaching to infinity as an astronaut.

Light n Shade

For the memories, in my heart which will  stay with me till the last breath and even in the ashes moving to some unknown land , for her for making my days full of her magical scent .

“She came from space I bet for sun and stars,

Folk visit him with defect and scars,

She enlighten the world with her power,

He absorb remorse immaculate one like a shower .

Earth shines birds sing at dawn when she arrives,

Once he met her accidently in that chartless tribes,

Shade was stunned with that interaction,

Light was scattering without distraction.

Earth went to rest at dusk shade was in jubilation,

Now light felt a mixing affiliation,

She thought of a comrade,who showed her path,

Together they will remove world’s wrath.

Light n shade promised to stay together till winds blow,

Facing each other helping each other grow.”

CRYPTIC FRIENDSHIP

Golden are her eyes, bright and lustrous,

When I see through them I feel victorious. 

My eight legged friend, is immensely mysterious. 

” How all she manage and still walk like an actress?”

I recall the day,the way,we met,

There is some chemistry between us,I bet.

She is a peach from inglorious domain,

I pray she stays with me in life’s lane.

Another day she was there, more beautiful she was days before ,

We convened; she smiled and seized me, glimpsing her frequently,

We randomly meet,in the way, to be humanistic,

I tried to reveal her to myself, but she’s still mystic.

I don’t know how will she understand my feelings,

Or is there same such thing with her ,what I’m dealing?

My Hostel Room Talks

• “Happily we are learning,cheerfulness, happiness and hope
• We are the one who do mistakes,
• We are the one who find new gate,
• Who we are is not our fate,
• Keep growing my dear mate,
• Live, let live ,rise above hate,
• Build yourself, have a cate
• Polish your passion to sate,
• Push yourself , don’t wait,
• Come sleep , before its late,
• Then go to work, make things great,
• Are the words of your room,
• Where within time you will groom.”
  

Regret Of Words

I feel how much i have changed, I understand this enactment was arranged;

I feel sorry for those nasty words i said, After all this i feel like i am dead

I understand you may not understand this, but soul doing that wasn’t my wish;

I don’t want you to move ahead, I feel ashamed for what i said.

Good were the days ,good was the time , I know you will forgive my crime;

Those golden pages are still lustrous, I know you will solve the calculus,among us.

Many might be thinking for whom these words are, I have written to remove that scar;

Forgive me, Forgive me,Forgive me , For the regret I have in my heart…